sick

fall sick for the last few days and i really hope to get well as soon as possible. will take plenty of fruit juice this evening and skip dinner to help flush away toxic inside me. damn feel terrible. how to survive if like this aaa? damn…

2009

What a nice morning, sitting in my office, overlooking Genting Highlands.  I just noticed I can actually see Genting from my office room.  How pathetic I was for the last six months.  Never even bothered to see the surroundings of my new workplace.  The truth is, I hate my new division.  The working enviroment is terrible, and most of the people here are pathetic (no wonder I am one, I mix with them too often).  Anyway, let go of the past.  Only then one shall be able to move on.  Therefore, I wish and hope for a wonderful year ahead for me, my family, Airin and my friends.  Lets take a new path towards a better year and live a meaningful life.  Happy 2009.

The view of Genting Highlands from my office desk

father’s love

when i was a young boy, i was told by relatives that my dad loves my brother the most, being his first child.  this statement have been in my mind for years and i have get used to it until at times, i just tell people off i don’t care at all.  and, i did feel how sad dad was the day when bro flew off to dublin to start a new life, letting go everything he own back in malaysia.  and i feel it’s really ok to be ‘least’ love by dad, for he never treat me bad and he always take good care of me.  my love for him is endless.

all the perception i have for my dad changed drastically after last week.  he came all the way down to kl, at 4.30am in the morning with the entire car full with paints, to help me paint my house.  and for the rest of the five days, he did the house painting for me.  and, to make sure i have enough rest, he told me he dislike my bed, and prefer to sleep on the floor.  i tried to make him sleep on the bed but end up he still sleeps on the floor for three nights.  and every single night, i will try to look for snoring sign from dad, for i know if he snore, meaning he’s really sleeping.  whenever i hear the sound of snoring coming from him, i was very happy though at the same time, i can’t sleep well due to the snoring noise.

and dad really keep his promise, he painted almost every part of my house and make sure those are the colours i like.  and, on sunday after he left, i really feel his love for me is as deep as his love to my bro. and, i will never again telling anyone that my dad loves my brother more than i, for i know he love us both very much, more than he love himself. dad, if only i can be half as good as you when i become a dad myself in the future, i can consider myself a successful father already.  to my dearest dad, i love you very much, as much as i love mom.

sick

have you ever feel sick whenever you want to work on something? I have that almost every single time i wanted to start on a new assignment or task. having sorethroat since yesterday and it doesn’t feel well even after i drink one big pot of herbal tea. to make thing worse, the air conditioner in the office that never seem to be cold suddenly blasting cold air since morning and wearing blazer don’t seem to make things any easier for me. will just hang on until 4.30pm and then call it a day and go home. don’t intend to go home late and have to start pushing with other commuters in the lrt. hope i will be better tomorrow though. not much work getting done today. sigh…what a day…

14 may 2008

my colleague gave birthday to a beautiful boy around 11.13 am @ 14 may 2008. i never figured out the baby share the same birthday with me until another colleague of mine wishing me happy birthday and happy having a anak buah that share the same birthday with me. i’m happy, and what can i say, apart from wishing him happy birthday and wishing him to grow up well and become a true gentleman. god bless my dear

happy 28th birthday to myself

happy birthday to me, happy birthday to me, happy birthday to myself, happy birthday to me… 28 years old this year, including nine months inside mom and i would be 29 in three months time. how time flies. feels like i’m just seven years old yesterday and today i’m…what should i say, getting older, or mature? hmm…either way, i grow up, and learn plenty of things in the process. and i hope i will be wiser as well.  anyway, my birthday wish for this birthday would be that a happy and wonderful year ahead for my family, friends and myself.  lastly, happy birthday to you, yun sean

for a start…

whenever i past by waste bins, i would think how dirty and non-enviroment friendly people are nowadays.  throwing rubbish to waste bin is one thing, throwing it properly INTO the waste bin is entirely different thing.  i wonder what’s the extend of dirtiness that a person can tolerate with the waste bin and can he/she tolerate such dirtiness in their own house.  well, for a start, i’m not a particularly clean person, but at least, i have the courtesy of throwing rubbish properly, rather than just throwing the rubbish for the sake of just doing it. 

last week, my car porch was superbly dirty and full with rubbish thrown out by the neighbours opposite my house. since those college students had moved out from the house, leaving the entire street looks more like land field rather than housing area, i have to clean all the rubbish and pack it properly before putting it outside for the garbage men to collect it. and, considering they are college students, i can’t even bear to think of what will happen in the future once these people become parents themselves. cleaniness, apparently doesn’t appeared in their life dictionary. what a pity…